I'm still in existence... in case anyone was wondering.
Generally when I'm absent from blogging I'm also spending horribly. These past few weeks have been an exception. I haven't been spending wisely but I haven't been spending in excess either.
I'm in this Bill Murray's "Groundhog Day" slump waiting for the baby boy to pick a birthday. I wake up, wait for baby, and then go to sleep rather disappointed that alas today was not the day. Actually there's several little boughts of sleeping thrown into that routine. And repeat. At this point everything kind of hurts (not in a horribly unbearable way but just in an "I'm uncomfortable and don't really want to move for any reason" way). I'm depressed for having been off work for so long now and yet I don't even have the little one here with me (outside of tummy that is). I'm not beating myself up too badly for being off work because I could not physically work any longer BUT it's really difficult just waiting. As every day passes by that's one more day of maternity leave gone and one less day I get to spend with the new little man. It's REALLY difficult. In fact I've yet to face anything in life that's been as difficult as these past two (almost three) weeks. It's crazy that something which will result in one of thee absolute best aspects of my life would be so very awful and draining. (on second thought that's how most grand things in life come about I guess). I feel as though I'm broken, shut down, not really entirely existing. Everyday is the same now. Everyday could be the day he arrives. Everyday I have less than ZERO motivation to do anything but hope and wait. I haven't been blogging because I've just been waiting (rather impatiently and grouchily). No one wants to hear a pregnant women whine everyday about the same exact thing and so I've refrained. This blog is bad enough as it is.
Recap: no baby yet. I've been doing ok with the budget these past few weeks (although spending it on nonsense). I CANNOT wait to make the announcement to all you lovely folks that he's finally arrived... still, waiting none the less.
I think maybe he wants to be a leap day baby? OH, I hope he doesn't wait that long!!!