I think I've turned into a monster.
I am mildly suffering from a cold and apparently colds and pregnancy don't mix well because I've been crying all day. None the less I'm feeling terrible for the feelings I'm experiencing after the baby shower today. You'd expect me to be overcome with gratitude and thankfulness, much like I was after the last AWESOME shower of blessings we received. Instead I'm feeling incredibly overwhelmed by all the STUFF that we just received, much of which we do not need at all. (we did get some GREAT gifts that will be used daily once the little guy arrives... but there was ALOT of... random stuff)
I live in a house full of stuff. I'm trying to bring as little as possible into this house now that I've come to the realization that we need very little of what we already have. I'm also trying to get rid of a lot of the stuff that we've accumulated that's just taking up space and causing me restlessness. Additionally I'm trying to pay off debt (alot of which is the direct result of said STUFF!). This paying off debt thing AND having a difficult time affording things we actually NEED, like car maintenance, dog food, healthy people food... oh my am I ranting... it's not exactly what I'd call fun.
Ok, okay get to the point. Now our unborn child has all this stuff of his very own, much of which is terribly unnecessary and I'm feeling very overwhelmed, and ungrateful, and like a horrible person. Well folks I believe I've officially turned into a simplist. I'm having a difficult time being thankful for the mound of stuff that's just entered our house. That's TERRIBLE! It's really terrible. I've become a monster.
I think I need to take some more vitamin C and go to sleep now. Good nite.
For example we received 15 hooded bath towels for our little guy. The husband and I only own in total 7 bath towels for ourselves. I'm pretty sure we don't need 15 hooded bath towels for the baby. Ok, I'm done now.