I only got about five hours sleep Friday night. My husband called at 4am Saturday morning freaking out because the bank account was several hundred dollars over drawn. Thank-you 5/3 for pulling the equity line payment out DOUBLE and two days before normal. Oh, how I love thee! I'd planned to cancel the automatic payment on Saturday and pay it about a week later. Instead they totally screwed up our account, caused my husband to go without food while working Friday night, and after being woke in the middle of the night to a phone call like that I lost a good deal of sleep. I fixed things easy enough... it's sad that I'm getting used to dealing with things like this BUT I was frazzled, to say the least.
I'm a "require eight hours sleep" or more type person so Saturday was a me drinking a lot of coffee and being super grouchy type day. My husband and I were at each others throats. I had to prepare a veggie lasagna and cheese biscuits for my mom's birthday that I was sure I had all the ingredients for (I didn't) but I couldn't hardly get the motivation to move let alone clean up the kitchen and start cooking. Ugh, I felt like the sky was falling, like my kid was going to have to fend for himself all day, like I was needing to call my mom and cancel her birthday, like I was failing at life...
I got the lasagna made, somehow got myself dressed and my kiddo dressed and made it out of the house sort of on time... okay, not really. My car is driving kind of wobbly (I hope it's an air in the tires, maybe a little unaligned thing) so that was a little worrisome. We had to go to the store to get several things (even though it was a planned no spend) and ended up spending $19.60 on the items I was missing. I totally burned the cheese biscuits at my moms (and yet they weren't even cooked in the middle). Saturday was fun!... all this said, emotions have their appropriate place in life but sometimes they are just stupid, dumb, annoying buggers that need to be told to shut up. I managed to at least identify that most of this "failing at life" humdrum that was taking over my brain was the result of a frazzled early waking and lack of sleep but oh blah!
As we were driving to my mom's/ my sister's house, my kid knew how out of sorts I was, so I told him that we needed play a game called, "let's think of what's good." The whole way to the store we talked about what's good; it was a pretty warm sunny day, we were getting to visit with the family, we'd be eating yummy ice cream cake at Aunt Starr's house, he had a fun day with daddy and their buddies the other day; the list goes on. When we drove into the parking lot little Abe's favorite radio song came on, I actually drove right back out of the parking lot and headed to a different store so we could listen to/ sing the song together.
I'm still pretty blah today but all in all this has been a really great month. My family is incredibly healthy. My kid is super awesome. I've done great with spending/ budgeting this month. My basement looks amazing. I'm not going to let a few incidents and a horrible night sleep kill the rest of January for me (even though right now, emotionally it feels that way). Nope!
I leave you with a poor youtube video of one of my very favorite songs that always puts me in a better mood. You kind of have to blast it and sing along at the top of your lungs with a good deal of attitude to get the full effect but, yep, one of my very favorite cheer me up songs. If you listen, enjoy!