Little Abe and I just started a month of learning with sheep. I promised myself that I was not going to post every minute of our fun to the blog. But he finished the first sheep craft the other day and I am so in love with it that I've been having to hold myself back from posting it.
I waited "patiently" through eleven years of marriage for my kiddo. When he was born it was as if my every dream had come true. Even so I had postpartum depression (combined with sleep deprivation) pretty badly. I remember a few times holding him and bawling uncontrollably because my baby would be gone soon. Just looking at the sweet tiny baby face I'd waited so long for and knowing that he was even in that minute growing up was tearing my heart up. I wanted to keep him, that baby boy, the one I'd waited all my life for but he was going to grow up. Yeah, it was hormones and wild after birth emotions, and a whole world of craziness going on inside of me but I was heart broken that my perfect baby would soon be gone. "Time goes by too fast." Everyone says it. Everyone knows it.
I don't know if we'll have more children. It'd be a dream come true. But as it is we have one perfect son who's growing with abandon. It can be pretty easy when boxing up clothes he's grown out of to feel the loss of the years gone by (I know, we've only two years behind us). I cherished every moment of those years. But I am far beyond what words can express happy with the little boy I have in my life right now. I loved the baby he was but I don't miss that baby. I'm excited about the youngster he'll become but I am not eager to know what he'll look like or how he'll be when he's older. My kid right now is amazing; he amazes me, just as much, if not more than his brand new little baby self did (and that's saying a lot!).
And now I give you my son's first sheep craft because I'm in awe of this kid and I absolutely could not refrain from posting it:
I helped him with the placement of the head and I moved each of the legs a tiny bit. He did the cotton balls and the eyes and the tail all on his own. I should have let him do the legs on his own too. I just love that the tail is floating out in space.
I love every minute of my son!