And I need to vent somewhere.
All financial factors aside this month has been awful so far. I was hoping to really get in the Christmas spirit, listening to music and watching lots of Christmasy programming while Christmas crafting a little each day (in hopes of saving a few pennies). So far during the last 10 days my son has gotten sick. This in itself is just heart breaking. He keeps asking me to make his nose better and I cannot. He keeps complaining that his ear is sore and I haven't anyway to let him know that the medicine is helping (slowly). He does not understand why I am not making him better. I always make everything better. I can't stand that I'm unable to make him better. The potty training was going TERRIFICALLY. He has been the one excited about it. He has been rocking it. But the past two days he's been so frustrated that he couldn't care less about his little potty and I'm not pushing it on him. This is terrifying for me. I've never done this before and I feel like we're back at square one when the finish line had looked so unbelievably close just two days ago.
Additionally my husband is feeling ill. I don't want him sick any more than I'd wish it upon my son but I'm just going to say it, the man is such a baby when he's ill. I've had very little sleep this past week and I cannot nurse him back to health too. AHHH! Can I tell you I'm popping vitamin C pills like candy right now. Lets just stay in this vein. My littlest dog is very prone to bladder infections and she is showing signs. She has not urinated in the house which is the tell so we're watching her closely and hoping otherwise but seriously, no, no, no, no! Why!?!?!
The microwave died earlier this month which just complicates things further and right now we're not even thinking about the expense of buying a new one. Watching Christmasy programming has in fact caused the opposite of what I had hoped. I've watched a lot of movies on TV and Christmas kids shows during the sickyness and crafting and I've not noticed ONE, not one single reference to the birth of the baby Jesus. I like decorating the tree. I love Christmas decorations. Santa is a fun story. I don't mind one bit that the programming is trying to focus on the three holidays, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, and Christmas. But the ONLY aspect of Christmas any of the shows have mentioned is Santa Clause and decorating a tree. The ONLY reason I celebrate Christmas is to rejoice at the birth of Jesus. I'm feeling really let down, a bit depressed, and sad. Apparently Jesus is now so offensive that we not dare mention Him on television. I'm feeling so un-Christmasy that I just want to cancel all together. And my house is not decorated. In fact it looks worse than it has in a very long time, just trashed. My son just wants to be held. I just want to hold him and there hasn't been much cleaning (or anything else) taking place here lately.
Also I burnt my coffee on the stove again today and I dried my pants too long. Now I have to drink weird coffee and wear tight pants to work. Keep it coming!
This month, the past 10 days have been horrid. The strange thing is that every December looks similar to this. What is it about December? My next post will have to be about all the wonderful things in life. AHHH!